Anonymous said: ok so i am a freshman and i have played clarinet since 5th grade but i was never really good at it. so i recently switched to horn and i think I'm not too bad and my BD is convinced I'm amazing because i practiced the audition etude so much but I'm not that great. so he put my in my schools middle band on horn even though I've only been playing since august and I'm really struggling in band class with confidence. its a lot easier playing on my own rather than in front of people. any tips?
I guess…sometimes it’s best to just do it. Practice your little butt off until you know you can’t get it wrong. And just go for it. Right now, all you have is a mental block. Sure, maybe you’ll mess up once or twice- but you’ll never get better if you don’t just go for it. Don’t think about anyone else in the ensemble as a person- just as another sound. Think about their sounds, not what they’re thinking about you. Because it doesn’t matter.
Nobody’s gonna hate you if you screw up in rehearsal, unless it’s over and over again. You might dwell on it and feel horrible and embarrassed- but unless there’s somebody keeping tabs on you to use for blackmail- nobody will remember it in five minutes.
You’re a freshman- and I don’t say this in a condescending way, but rather in a “don’t worry, you’ve got time, you’re not terrible” kind of way. Band class is about getting better- not about being perfect.
Sorry I know this wasn’t very helpful but for me I have this physical hurdle that I imagine and I just have to jump it the first time and then the fear is gone (the uncertainty is still there, but I know I can do it again).
I leave this open to someone who can help you further.